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Tuesday, December 1st, 2009
11:08 pm	*sigh* i don't really understand why, if you have a dog, you don't keep a damn collar on it. or, microchip it. it's like 20 bucks and really easy to do. point being, i found a couple of dogs wandering my neighborhood. no collars. no microchip. taking them to the human society in the morning and hoping whoever owns them looks there. this whole issue woudl have been solved with collars or a damn microchip. if i had had a damn address, i would have taken the damn dogs there. so now i have two dogs for the night. who are outside, which i feel bad about because its cold, but my mom doesn't want them inside. though i may let the little one sleep inside anyway, since i think its too cold for a little chihuahua dog. (Comment on this)
Thursday, November 5th, 2009
1:53 pm	well, i haven't whined about things online in a while, and of all my social networking sites, livejournal is the whiniest, so i suppose its the best place. this is not a good semester. it should be awesome, since its the first time i've been able to just concentrate on school without worrying about having a job at the same time. i realize i'm really lucky to have parents that allow me to do that by paying for my rent and bills. but i just...can't handle this semester. its not even like i have any hard classes. i think i'm just burnt out on school. on life. i have roommates that are being douchey, yet again. i'm starting to think ali's right and i just don't live well with other people. at this point, can it really be my shitty judgement in choosing roommates, or is it actually all my fault? my supposed "best friend" just can't stop being an asshole, so i haven't talked to him in like 3 weeks, and honestly, at this point i don't know if i'll ever forgive him for treating me like shit. not that he'll ever apologize anyway. i just need a break. i had a break from people over the summer, but i guess it wasn't enough. its a good thing i have rocket. that little jackass puppy is the only thing that's keeping me close to sane these days. the only reason i get out of bed in the morning is to let him out. and honestly, half the time the only reason i make it out of my house is because of that little puppy. hopefully i can go climbing this weekend. that might help clear my head. (Comment on this)
Monday, October 19th, 2009
11:20 am	well, finally met with my new advisor for the first time today. she approved my thematic minor. she didn't really want to, but since i "had worked it out" with sue (my previous advisor who had to retire because she was getting migraines every day) she wasn't going to make me redo the whole thing. also, turns out i can, in fact, graduate in may. i just need to sign up for one more class and i'm good to go. what a relief. so maybe i'm not a great student, but at least i can get out of this hell hole in only four years. honestly, they should give you an award for being able to do that at the uofa. good mood. just in time to balance out the shitty mood resulting from the weekend. (Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 15th, 2009
3:13 pm	i'm...applying to be the new executive director of a-town? which is now known as college town...i'm still not convinced this is a good idea. though if i have to interview for it, i should probably convince myself. am i being a grown-up? a real one? this is scary (Comment on this)
Sunday, August 23rd, 2009
6:40 pm	it is really getting hard to deal with my mom's crazy. i know she's just not a very happy person and i know she's lonely and all that, but it's really hard to feel bad for her or to want to help when all she does is take it out on me. all i can say is she's going to regret it when i'm not financially dependent on my parents anymore so i don't have any reason to put up with it. (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 15th, 2009
5:32 pm	wow. amazing week. i cannot begin to describe it, but i will say that that is exactly what i needed to happen in my life. and it couldn't have happened at a better time. time to get back to the real world though (Comment on this)
Saturday, August 8th, 2009
5:53 pm	well after having been home for about three days, i'm going away again for a week. going to a-town. some kind of social justice conference/camp sort of thing. I was really excited about it about a month ago when i decided to attend. Now, I kind of just want to stay home. but since my mom already paid 300 bucks for it, i don't really have much choice. hopefully it will be a good experience. my assumption is that it will. not looking forward to the 4 hour car ride up to prescott with people i don't know though. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, July 24th, 2009
6:22 pm	well the intern that had decided for the last week or two to be a flaming bitch to me is gone. yesterday was her last day. i'm very happy about that. i even got out of work early today. which was nice. especially because the office was so empty. i technically have 7 more days of work left, but i've planned to be "sick" next thursday so that i can go on a white house tour. so i really only have 6 days left. i'm ready to be done with this whole working thing. though i'm going to miss some of the people in the office. i'm ready to go home now. i like dc a lot, but i live way out in the suburbs and i'm under 21. i think it'll be a lot more fun if i come out here to work for a couple years after i get out of college. i miss my puppy a lot. my cousin's going to prison for 120 days. i'm actually really concerned for him. my aunt may or may not be dying. no one knows, and she's refusing to tell whats wrong with her. this has probably been by far the most up and down summer of my life. (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 11th, 2009
8:04 pm	once i get back to tucson, i need to find a new job. preferably rather quickly. and preferably one where i can make more money than i have been at bentley's. should be easier this time around though, because i have more on my resume (Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 7th, 2009
8:25 pm	i love dc. i'm really starting to consider the option of coming out here to work when i graduate. i don't think i would want to live here forever, but a few years would definitely be fun. also, my office is amazing. the interns are a lot of fun. and i'm a little bit in love with my boss. but so is everyone who meets her. aside from how awesome this city is, i'm unbelievably glad that i'm away from tucson this summer. i am sad that i feel like i'm missing out on a lot of relaxing summer hanging out time, but ultimately, this will have been really good for me. i keep having to put up with a lot of bullshit from people, and its really been making me question myself. but since i'm on the east coast, i've had a chance to basically just forget about all that bullshit and take time for myself. which i think is something i really needed. my time away from tucson may even be extended by a few days, because i might be going to a conference thingy. which is going to be awesome. i miss my puppy though. and i miss a few key people that i still am able to trust. (Comment on this)
Monday, June 15th, 2009
8:39 am	geeze, why am i so scared of this? i already know how to get there, how long it will take to get there. i've met almost everyone in the office, they all seemed really nice. and yet i'm fucking terrified. and stepping out that door in 15 minutes is going to be one of the hardest things i've ever done. what the hell am i so scared of? its my first day, its doubtful they're even gonna make me do anything. i don't think i'm overdressed or underdressed, and even if i was, again, first day. wtf. i hope i feel better once i get there (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 4th, 2009
3:47 am	you know what i realize? i really need a fucking rebound. unfortunately, i'm just not cool enough for that. oh well, i leave soon anyway, maybe i'll have better luck on the east coast (though really , i doubt that.) (Comment on this)
Saturday, May 30th, 2009
1:02 am	so after much fiddling with my shiny new bike, i figured out how to put new bar tape on (which was the easy part) and adjust my brake levers. granted, i didn't really do it correctly, but found out how to cheat by using a really little screwdriver. next project to be completed before i leave: completely disassemble bike. repaint bike. reassemble bike. my concern is that i won't be able to put it back together, but on the bright side, the bike was free. (Comment on this)
Friday, May 22nd, 2009
11:03 pm	i just don't feel like this is where my life should be right now. i realize that after a year of being in a relationship being single is going to feel kinda weird for a while, but it sucks. most of the time i'm fine but....i don't like going to sleep alone. weird for me, considering for most of my adult-ish life, i've not been able to fall asleep with another person in the same room, let alone in the same bed. *sigh* all i can do is hang out with the people who matter as much as possible before i leave, and get as much exciting summer outdoor type stuff done as i can before i leave. and then i'll just have to deal with life in dc for two months. (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 17th, 2009
11:39 pm	god i am so glad i'm not surrounded by fucking morons anymore. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 15th, 2009
11:58 pm	its really fucking frustrating trying to do finals when the books i need, that i bought, are not actually in my possession at the moment. fuck my life. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 13th, 2009
1:29 am	i just can't concentrate on this fucking paper. and i realize that drinking beer is probably not helping the problem, but i'm so stressed out that i don't fucking care. all i want is to be done with finals and a fucking cig. but i quit smoking, i'm only halfway done with this paper, and i still have one more paper left. my next paper isn't due till the 18th (because no one's graduating, and my teacher wanted to give us a lot of time) but i'm not going to let myself hang out with anyone until i get that paper finished. then, i'm going to fucking relax. and i can't fucking wait. (Comment on this)
Sunday, May 10th, 2009
10:17 pm	i'm actually getting started on this paper. earlier than the night before its due. i'm impressed with myself. however, i need to get some "primary sources" which means i need to go to the library tomorrow.....i'm kind of a dumbass when it comes to the library. i cant really find stuff. lets hope i find some way to get it done.... i suppose i should try to start on my other paper too, considering its going to be one of the hardest papers i've ever written. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 6th, 2009
8:31 pm	who am i? (Comment on this)
Monday, May 4th, 2009
4:47 pm	i am really just getting sick of this bullshit. you guys suggested to me that this guy sublet from me. you found him. he's your damn friend. i said ok. we agreed that i would move out. and i moved out. when you spouted your bullshit about me still parking in the yard to go to class, i backed down. i've played very very nice. i've bent over backwards to deal with this in a way that wasn't detrimental to any of you, but has been extremely detrimental to my school work this semester and to my stress levels. well i'm fucking done playing nice. i moved out means that i dont pay rent anymore, you fucking morons. wanna try to make me pay rent? good luck. chances are you'll all get kicked out. oh, and lets not forget i could easily get you all kicked out anyway. since you all partake in illegal activities that the lease forbids EVERY DAY. fucking morons. i'm not backing down this time and you can all suck it. i no longer give a flying fuck if we're not friends anymore. (Comment on this)